Mom

Mommy, I miss youuuu! :'(

Batu

Kepala gw emang batu. Keras

Misread

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there

The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanor
But one of us misread

And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end

What do you know
It happened again

How come no one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth

The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you know?
It happened again
What do you know?

-by Kings of Convenience

Father

I love my father. Maybe more than I ever realized before. :'(

It's 2010!

Happy new year 2010 :)

I spent NYE with my best college's mates at puncak. Fun fun fun :D

I hope everything will be better in 2010 amin.

I'm rambling.

Approximately, it's been 1 day and half an hour of me being 20. So tired, have to realized it sooner or later. The reality is harsh, the reality is bitter. Sweet dream needs to be forgotten. Grow up already I'm a grown up. Reality doesn't always happen as we've always wanted. Wake up, in november I woke. Found the truth I refused to see all these time. Torn, sad, broken I am. Tears flowing, calming me just too little. Logic I need logic. Help me get out. I have no more energy. I can bear this no more please. I'm rambling.

Special

Two months since I promised to myself that I'd stop. I tried to get myself out of the circle. I tried so hard, so very very hard. I did everything I could to move on. Yet I found myself in this very same point. Everybody's keep going and I'm feeling left out. I'm being ridiculous and everybody will start laughing. I just can't help it. I wish I could.

You're so fucking special. So very fucking special. It doesn't make sense :(